Updated: Dec 24, 2021
Finally home after an eventful day. I'm in the middle of a 10 day straight work week with about 30 orders to produce each day. Coming off of the high of this past weekend's Texas Fleet Week was exhilarating and tiresome at the same time. I never knew how much traveling could actually exhaust you. I know I can do it, if my entrepreneur endeavors were the only thing on my plate. With my 9 to 5ish in the mix, I find I'm quite often stretched. Lately I've been pulling back where I can. This time 2 years ago I was hauling ass going 100mph and then just collapsing at the end. As I get older I learn that one cannot continue to thrive well at that pace. My surgery and recovery process taught me how to "listen" to my body. My body would speak and I pretty much neglected it until it was too late.
I wish I had all the answers. I'm becoming more and more comfortable with not having them. My therapist gave me a sheet that described "Mindfulness" (which I still haven't read smh). But what I think it is about living in the moment.
I have this thing where I try to figure stuff out on my own, "Imma see for myself" and then look at the textbook answer that could have saved me that venture.
I've been trying to adopt a habit of not freaking out and becoming anxious when things don't go the way I planned. Especially with my craft while I'm performing or anything in that realm. I used to get so upset and bent out of shape if my performance was off for whatever reason. This past weekend everything went wrong and was out of place. We still were able to perform but how it went down could have throw anyone off. As an audience member you never would have known the inside scoop of what was going on behind the scenes unless myself and the 646ent team told you.
This past weekend after I performed, I just left it all on the stage. You try to read your audiences mind, but it takes too much effort and pulls away from you giving your all during your performance. So I tell myself just sing because that's the key anyway. Just sing and the rest will fall into place. And before you know it by the time you get off stage people are congratulating you on having done an amazing job. Now the audience consists of other artists who have as much passion in their craft as you! So to hear from them means a lot.
Leave it all on the stage and continue to move forward.
You can never relive a moment or a mistake. When I think about it why would I even want to. For reflection purposes yeah sure. But to dwell on what you can't change no. Always, and I repeat for myself always move forward. Cherish every moment that is.
I've been trying to do that more often even while I'm tired. I own my exhaustion and all the more humanize myself towards others which makes my retail interactions more easy going. When I come home I just sit in the stillness of my room and lay beside my dog, Coco (smiles). Lastly when I speak, write, sing, dance, or have a conversation I'm learning that I am uniquely me and it's a pleasure to even occupy a space and time such as the present. For 100 years from now I will not be. So I'll leave my blueprint in your mind and on your heart with each opportunity I get. Nothing more and nothing less.
I promise to do the best I can with what I have and live to the fullest.
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