I never allowed myself to fall into a deeeeeeeppp disconnect or a depression regardless of how stressful the pregnancy, antepartum & 1st 4 months postpartum were.
I wrapped myself in the safe circle of my village (soon to be Soñai's village).
Without the village I would have fallen apart.
You keep smiling you keep putting one step in front of the other and think on things that make you strong.
Many of my friend girls have said how strong I've been throughout this entire process - the staff in the hospital -
I'm getting my footing back literally but still feel aloof at times.
Out of place and sometimes disconnected.
There's a former life.... and now I'm rediscovering myself all over again.
I have a foundation yes. But my building blocks have slightly changed.